Week 5 – Thursday

Wow! Oh my goodness!  I sat with a cup of coffee this morning and read through Emerson’s Essay on Compensation…..not exactly what I anticipated, but something even better!  His style and word paintings evoke a craft and a time long past – yet is spot-on in this present.

He gives words beautifully to feelings I’ve experienced, especially his words on change and growth coming from perceived loss.  Still in recovery from an event where not only I, but my husband and granddaughter experienced devastating loss, I appreciate – in retrospect – how it was a “blessing in disguise” and how we have grown from the experience.  Would that this growth could have happened without the pain, especially on the part of my granddaughter!  All we could do at the time was take one breath…..then another…..then still another, until we didn’t have to think about every one of them.  Our subconscious resumed control over respiration and other vital functions and we began our recovery.  Compensation begins in tiny steps, and we live to recover and grow further.

If you haven’t yet had the time to read the essay, you may anticipate a treat much like a deep, rich cup of cocoa or pumpkin pie with whipped cream in the fall time.

Peace be our Journey, friends.

Until next time,

Jeanette

 

Week 4 THURSDAY

Just call me Alice!  Having had the fabulous fortune to watch the entire film, “What the BLEEP” do we know?” I have to say that I’m seeing everything differently.  One of the characters asks Marlee Matin “How far do you want to go down the rabbit hole?”  (loosely quoted).  My answer is, “How far does it go?”.

I have more questions every day.  The concepts in this film changed everything for me, and I find myself wondering just how much, IF ANY, of what I believe is real.  The science is fascinating – I can’t get enough of it.  The implications to my life past, present and future are alluring…..especially if they are one and the same!  It certainly answers the old question about angels dancing on the head of a pin.

Now – to begin the choosing and changing in earnest.  The clouds of confusion are still swirling around my mind, but I can see some clarity beginning to coalesce around the edges.  The shapes, colors, promises are linking together more easily and quickly.  Connections are being formed within the neural net.  I seek different emotions and feelings with which to replace the cellular addictions keep me tethered to the past.

Don’t you just LOVE science!!

 

Week 3 Thursday

I’m beginning to make those connections……chore list, shapes and colors, with PPNs and the DMP, with Haanel’s marvelous teachings.  The neural connections are forming and gaining strength.  I see the future taking shape.  This is pretty darn exciting stuff!  I yearn so deeply for these changes yet I feel subby resisting the loss of those old ways of thinking.  The secret is persistence in the formation of new habits; I am persistence personified..always have been.

I must confess that I don’t understand the description and workings of the subconscious as yet.  As a scientist, I am finding it necessary to suspend belief and just go with Haanel’s descriptions in the literal sense.  That’s just me….looking for precise details and flow charts and arrows here and there.  I am in love with his prose, his ways of teaching and the lessons themselves.  I see the truths there and I want them to be my truths.

Mandino is/was (?) a genius!  My husband listens to me reading the scroll out loud each evening, and we are both enchanted by both his teachings and his prose.  We can’t wait for the new scrolls, yet we will be sorry to move on from this one.

I believe it would benefit me to spend more time in the members’ area and see what others are doing…yet my time each day is swallowed up so quickly.  I am struggling with my DMP.  The changes requested have turned it into a dry “laundry list” that even I struggle with listening to three times a day.  I have torn up the current one and am starting over, yet I see the same things happening to the new one.  Up till now, I am not understanding how to make the changes, stay within 400 words and ADD DETAIL.  I’ll keep working…  Enlightenment will surely be mine!!

 

Week 2 Friday

Crazy week, this.  Already I am experiencing a rhythm to each day.  A rhythm of consistency.  A rhythm of knowing, of comfort taken in the glimmerings of new and GOOD habits forming.  The growing familiarity with the rhythm of my head movements already taking hold as I read.

The craziness came in the struggle to figure out the actual address of this blog.  I have created 4 of them while following the directions given to us.  Hopefully the link I put into the comments section will prove to be valid and others will be able to find my words.  

I am in love with this process already.  I look forward with great excitement to see what the next 5 1/2 months bring.  Peace be our journey, friends.

Thanks for checking in.

With gratitude,

Jeanette

 

 

 

Week one, Day one…second attempt

So, remember I told you I was a bit afraid of new technology…..I wrote a lovely blog earlier and lost it while trying to publish.

We finally had our Master Key Kickoff webinar last evening – wow! Mark jokingly says that some people will find this to be like taking a college course.   It seemed that way, but after sitting down and going through the material today, it seems less complex and more manageable.

My thoughts, feelings and attitudes are already beginning to change a little bit.  Having gone through other programs with Mark and Davene, I expect this – and I know that it will require I step out of my comfort zone.  Having had successes in my past life, this is of some concern.  We humans don’t like being out of our comfort zones and we spend time wishing we were back there while simultaneously pedaling hard to avoid it.

Taking comfort and courage from those who have gone before and seeing their joy and purpose, I eagerly step off into the chasm, like Harrison Ford in that movie with all the snakes, knowing that the bridge is there even if I can’t see it.  I can’t wait to meet the person I will find in a few short months…..!

Check in on me now and again, will you?

With Gratitude,

Jeanette

Humbly Grateful

Hello…..

This is my first attempt to actually write on this blog…also my first experience reading one.  It’s true – like Facebook, smart phones and creating my own Zoom meeting – I have avoided technology until life required it.  Well, some tech anyway.  I embraced email and Word Perfect right away because these allowed me to communicate quickly and more easily than pen and paper.

I received my MKMMA scholarship today, and am most grateful and humble to be chosen for this experience.  I bugged Davene and Dayna and Derek quite a lot during the application process because …..well, it’s technology and I am (less now!) intimidated by communicating with something that I can’t actually talk to.  My deep thanks for their patience and understanding with my anxiety in trying to figure out this Twitter-thing, the Kajabi-thing and thanks also to my friend, Hugh Jenings, for helping me to finally get this blog-thing set up on the third try.  I look forward to becoming fluent in these tools!

Seriously though, I am truly grateful to be given this chance to change my life and, thru that, change the world in some way.  It humbles me and it excites me and it will stretch me in ways I do not yet understand.  I am thrilled to be doing this with people that I don’t yet know and I look forward to establishing lifelong relationships.

With Gratitude,

Jeanette